What is in our heart actually???

 I ask often to myself, what I want from my life..what's the purpose of my life… what I gonna do my whole life. I find no answer. Those people are lucky that they know what they want to do in their life or purpose of their lives. That's amazing how they discover that their purpose of the life. If got to know that what my life purpose, then all done . No chaos everything clear crystal. 

Three dates are in born date, when we discover purpose of life, death date . 

I m 26 still studying, want to be a writer but not much grip on language as it required. Because of study I didn't get much time to focus on my passion. In my life all fuckin chaos. My parents wanted to complete my professional degree do job . I want different in my life. I'm dependent on my father for money. But one thing i decided that after exams I will focus on creating content, improve my website . So that I get some money, prove to others that What I wanted in my life. 

Writing needs strong grip on language. I have to work on it . My books will be tools for becoming writer. Read read read is the only way to improve my skill set. 

What I see in the heart a blank page. It's you what You write on that page. Everyone hides, u can see through my eyes what's in my heart.

I m not running but burning from long time. I don't know from how long and for how long it will keep burning.

I wake up at 6, dreaming last night pics, that we have just random clicks 

U wearing pink dress for make me impress. For u I bought white flowers, u smile, blink your eyes I can see twinkle in your eyes.

We were dancing on the Bieber-let me love you-, for the moment I looked into your deep beautiful blue eye, like almond, moving here there now looking just straight into my eyes. Both of hearts are beating, who will recognize which is mine and which is her .

We were cold, bold, not old, I told u I love you, I hold your hand, by both my hands. U believe me u kiss me . 

Past is history but that moment is gift to me. Still 6.40 am in the morning. I feel like that I'm still dreaming. I look at you next me. You still sleeping. 

My heart is burning a hole in my chest and every time I hide my thoughts which speak to me, it keeps sinking, and I'm left with nothing but ashes. I wish now to write and talk to you for me it's like rising phoenix from the ashes. I m tired of being liking someone. If I like someone she is already had ego like glaciers, I like you she ignores me . I don't wanna say now that I love or like you to someone or I like ur job or your car. This is end of liking anything. Few days ago I said to women that I like you, she didn't reply that my text, she uploaded a pic of her with his boyfriend. I feel fuck I don't wanna say anything I will just say to her that have fun with that fuckin white guy. Seriously guys I don't know what happening now days especially with Indian women living in USA I mean NRI , if any Indian resident follows on twitter or on Instagram they ignore you. I want to say that social media means anyone can see your profile anyone can send Freinds request that's the purpose of social media that's web2.0 means interaction. I know like I send a friend request to anyone else I don't know that person There will be less percentage chance of acceptance. In my view they should at least see your profile and interact with that people who is sending request to you, if they like than accept otherwise no, they post sexy pictures in public mode why you do that you not going accept my Freinds request why you put that, for me it's like bully she is exciting me to like or visit or do something when I send text or request they say idiots they have any job to do . I want to say that fuck u in need to make your profile private mean show only to your Freinds, if I want to she hot pictures I will google it like hot pictures of Ana Cheri, kendall jenner, if send request to them they will treat me more browner than herself . They think they went US mean they became white shit no offense to the white people . In US they face racism I tell u a incident a white guy go shikh temple and try to rape women in inside the temple premises. If there is any American or white guy say hey brown bitch how you doing ....her reply would be like that waiting for your brown dick to give u brown blow job. For her white peoples dick is like snickers chocolate to them . This whole frustration is dedicated to few brown women's in America. Not to whole brown community in United States Of America. In other words my article not representing whole brown community, there are many in US are not like other I know. I m sharing link of news article of that guy who try to rape insid the temple. News report Of white man in USA try rape and assault inside the Sikh temple in America. 

This above pic dedicated to those people especially try racism in the same race they belong (same-race discrimination) . I m sharing perfect quotes that describe me Sometimes-
 

I feel discriminated against, but it does not make me angry. It merely astonishes me. How can any deny themselves the pleasure of my company? It’s beyond me ~ Zora Neale Hurston

This article is not a complaint . But when people do such discrimination in the same race it hurts. Especially we were not expecting from our people. In this I used some abusive language not to offend any body or I didn't use for any attention.