why I m so lifeless??

When I see the gooey gray tree of the city

I just see myself as sane as a gooey gray tree

Starting my day with checking iPhone

Ends the day with drinking alcohol or with some on bed

Life is passing very fast as I am traveling

In the bullet train without any stoppage,

With hope someday someone pulls the trigger

I hope it would be my most beautiful end.

Why I am so lifeless??

Because I don’t  love myself; therefore I work at a job I truly not enjoy doing, one that squeezes my energy, earning money to compromise with heart is lifeless

I lost love for myself.

I don’t love myself; therefore I can’t forgive myself and I am surrounded by my past and I am not free as wind are.

How should I have to live my life, to live my life I  behave and think in a loving way to all people since I know that that which I give out returns to me multiplied. I only attract loving people in my world, for they are a mirror of what I am.

Prayer-

My religion is to be living a life that’s matters. God gave me peace that always matters. I thank you, Lord, for redeeming me; And if I had but one prayer, that prayer would be…

“Lord, keep me ever yielded to thee”.