God will help those, who help themselves…..

Date- 05/04/2017
Today I m feeling little bit off, but question is why I m feeling that way. My often reply to myself that I’m also a human, these are moods, feeling flavour of life experience it well. But this is happening so many times and from long time, why I ignoring always, why I’m not happy, why always wanted to be like others people enjoying. I observe that I often see pics of other doing partying or traveling, and I imagine myself like that way happy or smiling . That doesn’t mean I m not happy with their happiness, I’m happy with that, but I want see my self to be like that way with full zest and zeal. I know if I’m getting these feeling for myself that’s mean everything’s not going good.
I believe that I have always blame others for my unsuccessful. If I fail in exams I say paper is too tough or results passing percentages is too low. I satisfy my self in any way and to my parents also, but from inside everyone knows my parents are not fool they have seen more world than me. but know one say on my face . But today that failure again knocking my door. My exams start from 2nd may , but syllabus is not complete, i have done no revision I know myself where I stand. Still I didn’t doing hard work I not following my goals sole heartedly. 

Few years back I m talking with my friend about people never change. He said that everyone born with some good qualities or bad. There nature never change, they always remain same whatever the situation is . I oppose him I said with time or with situation people change them self . He didn’t agree with me. But today I doubt my view about that debate. Whether he is saying right thing. Reason of my doubting myself this is my sixth attempt, 5 times I failed and I didn’t improved my self . No exemptions in any exams no pattern changes, no attitude changes. Time is running very fast, when sun is up and get down I feel like I’m sleeping 24 hours I feel very bad to say that what’s going on with life. That’s very bad, I m destroying myself. God save me. God gave me chance many time . 

But these 20 days that I have, I will pray to god, try to change my attitude, my way of doing study, most important hard work that I need. I always assess myself very up, I think I can do everything that point where I m wrong. I need come on ground reality, where I’m , what I have , where I want to go and what take or require to reach my aim high.

My mother said god will help those, who help themselves.

I don’t know what inspires me to write this article, but I can say that writing definitely helped me. When u feel down/negative pray to god u will find someone helping you, god always comes but not directly through someone else. 

This time to change myself. God help me . I m not going get chance again and again.  

Main reason of feeling bit off is not improving myself, not looking at the problems and compromising with the situation. If I want to be successful I have to come out of my comfort zone . It is for everyone not only for me. I have see many friends of mine who is doing CA and leaves because they were unable to clear their exams. Mainly the negative people i don’t want to talk about anymore negative, let’s leave negative thoughts. I read a quote 

I don’t know but i’m feeling really good after writing this article. When I started writing this article I’m so sad and feeling negative but I don’t know just seeing a ray of light in the end of tunnel . 

But one most important thing I have learned from my mother that happiness and sadness is part of life. Nothing is same forever always remember that. If today I m very happy, someday I will sad I can’t take anything for granted. If I have seen sad or bad phase now, when good phase or happiness came I know it’s cost, I know it’s value . At that time known one knows better than me the value of happiness. It’s important to be in every phase. But what ever in situation you are, never be negative like don’t think this is end . I have seen one of my friend after long time at somewhere, actually he recognised me I m not able to recognise him, reason he is shrink to much, no shine on his face, his eyes having dark circles, his backbone is bent like he 85 years old. I m surprise to see him . He is saying hi harpreet how are you, I’m so surprised, I didn’t listen what he is saying. In evening his call came, he what happens u didn’t reply “dude I didn’t recognise you, u look so terrible “, he said negative things/thought stuck in my mind . I said dude get some life . That’s the way you reducing your life. That’s mean you don’t understand the life meaning , even but we fight with negative feelings or sometimes with negative people . That only example came in my mind is of KFC that’s life journey is incommensurable . So finally I have start study, I didn’t have much time, my exams were very near.